… is one of the best, worst, and most exhilarating feelings. Unfortunately, when that waiting is a few weeks long instead of a few hours or minutes, the spanking is harder to give and harder to take.
My sweet M has merited himself a spanking, even though he is HoH. I don’t think many true HoH’s will switch and get spankings when they are bad and break the rules, but M maintains his HoH status by being the one to decide if and when he needs a spanking. Then I am in charge, as per his order, for only as long as he is being punished (I decide how long that is, and I am probably too soft with him, but that’s why I’m sub!). I might suggest he needs a spanking, but unless his behavior has been blatantly awful (pretty much never happens), he is more likely to refuse if I try to push him into it; he really is in charge.
Alas, we are still living apart and can only see each other at most once a month. Last week, M had some irresponsible behavior while drinking, and it became quite clear that he needed a spanking that would inspire him to do better. Yet, I don’t get to see him for 2 more weeks! How hard it is to learn, to associate a spanking with an action, to feel that a spanking is even deserved, when the time between misbehavior and punishment is thus delayed! I am afraid that by the time he gets his spanking, all his natural emotions of wrongdoing will be diminished, and he will have to actively recall them to get into the right state of mind. Likewise, I will have to remind myself that he was verily bad, and try even harder than usual to not feel cruel while giving my sweet Boy any pain.
I guess this is just one more difficulty we will have to overcome before we can experience the pleasure of living together again. I know it’s going to be a long, hard year, but I know even better how much our life together will be worth the wait. 
